Is this love?

just because a guy wants to stay under you 24/7 instead of handling responsbilities and working, doesnt necesserily mean he loves me right, he don't want me to get a second part time job because we need quality time he says bullshit, i really can't stand to be around him anymore, we have grown apart, and with all the abuse, cheating, lying and stealing he has put me through, how can i be in love wih him, what wrong with me, i want leave him alone but im do want him either, he has hurt me too much i feel like he try to hold me down i have his 2 kids and i work my but off he doesn't do nothing but buy diapers and maybe some wipes, oh why what a big help, he feels he is a good man and a great father, i know better and he want work to bring in extra money, and he don't want me too either, he just want to sit up and make babies all day, i feel like he just live life for the moment, just enough to get by, i can't deal with that what do i do